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Here's our story that does not end with a full stop but instead, starts a
blissful marriage for us....
January 07, 2006
Yesterday skipped school with nana even though i headed off to school already as i was freaking tired n afraid that i might dozed off in lab for kevin's class so i would rather stay at home to rest. Messaged nana in the morning n realised that she overslept too...thus we both skipped sch together...haha first time invited her to my house but pretty messy la... *shy* she had her breakfast at my house downstairs the coffee shop before heading to my house.
After staying at my house for like 1 hour plus, we left n headed to school instead as nana realised that her Cisco slot really isnt working well le...thus she suggested going to IT helpdesk for help...but as usual, IT helpdesk is known for as IT helpless...thus they cant do anything but ask nana to go fujitsu to get it fixed instead. So nana n i headed down to Taka the fujitsu centre there to send in her laptop but as nana hasnt backed up the file, she decided to bring back first before bringing it down to service. So we went down to cityhall (funan) there via train to meet her mum, who's working at Ya Kun as well as to go peninsular to see the basketball team's new addidas shoe. After eating Ya Kun Loti, we went to "Challenger" to buy mouse together. Finally bought my mouse after so long that i have been grumbling...After purchasing the mouse, we went peninsular n shopped n realised tt e latest addidas shoe if we buy in bulk caused $75...not ex for an addidas shoe...thus it's worth buying... :) after walking for so long, we decided to head back to container by taking bus 111 n rest there...but instead of getting rest at the containers, the basketballers (guys) keep making so much noise at the container...but the most irritating one should be carl ba...keep disturbing nana n teasing her abt her new bf (jimmy)...what's wrong ah? Crazy guy...people cannot have bf meh...like u ah...choose a buffalo as a gf n treat her like 宝...kao...少恶心...
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Suddenly i feel that my world is so filled of darkness...life without alot of people...you can say i locked myself up in the darkness or you could say i'm really been left alone...
My used to be gang ever since i really had vent my long anger on them, i no longer feel like wanting to be bonded with them like i used to be...maybe because of him which really makes me feel like that...n what else could it be?
I'm not a pretty girl that love for branded or demand for expensive stuff, i just want a normal relationship, a normal basketball team whom i can happily play with n a gang of friends where i can hang out with when i'm free...but all these...seems to be drifting further n further apart...it's no longer there anymore...
Ever since i brought michelle into the gang, all cares about dota n nobody even rem that we had planned to meet up on this weekend to watch movie...haiz how upset can i not be...i really really really 洗手不干了...u guys do wadever u all want...i just want to be what i am...just leave me alone then...
Dont be disheartened...dont be despaired ming...how can i not be? All the happiness just leave me all of the sudden...
I want to cry but i told myself i got to be strong n not be like last time...whenever got things will go complain to kor, nana, ping or rosie n just cried my ass off me...but now i want to be strong...want to be the independent girl that i wished to be...
He is my life, my soul, my everything...but i dont ask for that anymore...
Basketball is my second life, my second soul yet not my everything...n now it's getting further n further away from me as i haf no more hearts to play the coming IVP for RP anymore even though i know i am fighting my injuries around my body due to non stop trainings n my muscle tear knee injury, 我真的想放弃了...even though all along i haf been sitting on the bench for most of the matches n i might be the weakest among all the seniors, i still feel that i am not the worst among all the juniors. But now i seriously feel that even coach look down on me which hurts me badly...a new coach that seems to be the crucial key to IVP...i hate to see myself being in the IVP team yet is the no 16-18 player sitting on the bench not allowing to play...i dont want!
In my whole entire life, what is the most proud thing i ever done which made my family, my friends n even him proud? I think nothing but making them miserable seeing me everyday or every other days...if ever i had a chance to say to everyone out there, i really wish to end my life now n just let myself go to the netherland n pray for all of you out there to be happy always when life is without me...
Thanks ah boy for being the first to realise that i'm feeling down...there to show your concern to me... *grateful*
With luv *my darling boey always....* -220803-
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